Fireduck

2000.12.24

I am currently airborne. Around 10km over some peice of whitebread america. I sit here taking up three seats with all my stuff. I am glad my longer flight is sparcely populated.

I relize somehting that is obvious, but bears stating. Life is now. Don't wait for some distant future to start living...you should be living now. Don't say to yourself, next year I will have a better car and a better place to live, then I will have fun. Or in a few years I will graduate and move around and travel and really live. Life is now, the ever moving and ever current now. Not some distant or near future. Just as you cannot live in yesterday, you can't live in tomorrow either. Live today. Sure, it might be wise to plan for the future, but life is now. If you arn't living now, what the hell are you doing?

I read the first 20 pages of Carl Sagan's Cosmos...based on what I have read, it looks good. Adds a little perspective to living on this spinny marble. Who's game of jacks are we a part of? Was there a game that is abandonded long ago? We will probably never know...but it probably dosen't matter, but when what does?

I think I might almost be able to put into words an idea that has been floating in my head for a while. Everything and nothing matter simultanously. If you do the math you discover that any action you can perform or thought you can create, just moves around some molecules and shit around. Net result: 0. All the same shit happens. The earth still eventualy grows cold around a dead or dying sun. Nothing happens. Nothing matters. By the same token, everything is equaly important...everything leads to that end result...every peice of a complicated ballet of people, worlds, flies, whatever...it is all a peice of the big puzzle...what is a puzzle without a single small peice? Incomplete. So everything matters and does not matter at once. That sort of dualism or doublethink is how I think of the world.

I do not beleive in the existance of good or evil, right or wrong, they are just things made up by society to further some goals. Most of those goals have to do with having the most poeple survive at once. Thou shall not kill. (assumption 1: More people is better). Thou shall not steal. (stealing from anouther could lead to the victim not being able to survive, ex: if you steal their food or money. Leads back to assumption 1). Follow the laws of the land. (assumption 2: more people will survive in an orderly society). If you can save someones life you should (assumption 1). The point I am trying to make here is that all the rules we accept as universal could just be the product of a society trying to survive. Those rules might be outdated for our current context. I'm not saying that they are, I am just inviting some thought into that matter. What do you assume? Think about it. Maybe our goal as a society should be to promote quality of life rather than quantity. That gets into an entirely hairy issue of how to define quality. Quantity is rather easy to define in contrast. Maybe we should strive for more intelegent society. Who knows? I think we should think about it, and I think everyone is afraid to.

What would be said of a person who said: "not all life is sacred, it is ok to kill short people". That person could have all the evidince and research in the world behind them, but no one would listen. Some of these "moral" rules are so ingrained in us, and those who questioned them so villified that no one even thinks on that track.

I am not afraid to speak...partialy because I don't think anyone is listening, partialy because I beleive in saying what you think. Also because I beleive in what I am saying. I beleive in questioning everything.

Only once we question these things and others will we advance and ensure our survival as a species. Much like a stuborn child, we do not learn quickly or easily. Think we will learn what we need to know the hard way. It will probably be a halocost or famine or flood or fire that will make us question what we think we know.

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